you KNOW how i feel about tuesday by now. greatest day EVER.
like my new color scheme? it’s my artistic thing of the day. i hope the color makes you feel…caffeinated.
wordpress likes to make it difficult to have the look you want without paying for it. i understand ~ it’s a biz. but i don’t have $68 just to make my blog look cute. i’d rather spend it at ann taylor loft.
i just read some BEAUTIFUL comments that, for some reason, i just received. but it was so wonderful to read them this morning, when i am so open to positive words. my friend jennifer was mentioning that she had been asleep at the wheel for a while, and that maybe this is my time to sit back and fall asleep for a little while? i like that idea. i think i might be there. i think i need to simplify my goals and not worry about them: practice, workout, find a peaceful moment, and eat healthy, but in moderation. that’s all. each day.
frankly, the workout, practice and peace items have been on my to-do lists SINCE BIRTH. if you look at my diary, back when it was called a diary, circa 1983 (the hub wasn’t even born yet), i’m sure there was a list in there ~ a “things that would make me feel so happy if i just accomplished them on a daily basis” list. ridiculous!!! but you know, some things are just eternally on our list, and they continue to “complete” us if we accomplish them on a daily basis.
it just doesn’t make sense to me, though, that those three items ~ practicing, working out, and peace time ~ are the three things i RARELY accomplish. WHAT? why, oh why, would those most important things to me, consistently escape my time and attention? i’m baffled!
but really ~ i’m starting to relax about this working out thing. i’m sick of feeling like a failure, just because i haven’t conquered the part of my life. this is my year to figure it out, and stop being hard on myself. just do it. don’t let it be a road-block anymore.
which brings me back to my friend jen’s comment ~ it IS my time to fall asleep at the wheel a little. i’m saying no to more gigs, no to piling my schedule up too high, and yes to just a few important items of biz each and every day. i’m letting go of the embarrassment i feel about the fact that those items have been the same since 1983, and just moving forward.
we have one year until we’re 40, jen. ONE year. i have every confidence in myself that i will keep these priorities this year, and every confidence in you, that you are going to keep dreaming.