what a week. zoicks. trying to find something uplifting and artistic to write about, and i am reading this really great book, called, “traveling light”. it uses psalm 23 as a reminder of all the ways we can find peace in our lives.
i just read a section on the “sabbath”, and how important it is to take one day off a week. although i have a big rehearsal at noon today, i still am holding on tight to the feeling that, yes, this is a day off for me. what’s a little rehearsal in lawrence with my friends? sounds more fun than anything. just forget that pesky little detail of the difficult music i have to sing for those 3 hours. and the fact that i left the music in my office at school, which could potentially mean that i have to drive all the way to liberty, then to lawrence. and then i’ll need to get groceries.
it’s very hard to view this day as a day off. but i must. it’s the most “day off” looking day i’ll have in a while. i need to use it.
i like all the ideas of a day off, a sabbath. i like the idea of sitting on my chaise (where i am right now) in my robe, drinking coffee, reading a good book. prayer and meditation somewhere in my day. a little yoga to get the body aligned? a day off makes me immediately want to practice, too. a good type of practicing, where you just get to know your voice, or maybe even pick up the violin instead. there’s a banana bread in the oven, and maybe a load of laundry in the dryer too.
and then i look back at all that, and i didn’t really have a day off if i do all that. someone has to MAKE the coffee and the banana bread. someone has to clean it all up. laundry? that’s work. practice? sheesh, what am i talking about? it should just be sitting on my chaise, doing a little yoga, and the prayer/meditation thing. that’s it!
and that’s why we have TWO days in a weekend. one day, you get all of the above accomplished and it feels. so. good. and the next day, you try to devote your whole day to a peaceful, meditative, slow-moving fog. even if you did that for an hour, you would feel incredibly revitalized. if you did it a whole day, i don’t know what would happen.
but, i have never done that. i have had one hour of that, and it’s true ~ it is pure serenity. and then i jump up and, feeling like i’ve literally been healed from all my burdens after that hour, i start conquering the world.
today, no matter how much work i end up doing, i’m going to do it slowly, and in a meditative fog. stoned with peace. ha ha ha.