okay, at least i walked yesterday. i walked to mildred’s coffeehouse, sipped coffee and read for a while, and walked back. i don’t know if that counts, but it helped get me out of my funk. that really is true happiness to me ~ a book, a cup of coffee, a cozy cafe. truth be told ~ this week is really turning out to be … Continue reading thursday.
i have already shut down. just hunkering down and holding my breath until school’s out. umm ~ it’s march still. i have a long way to go, so why am i already giving up on everything? i absolutely refuse to work out. why? why does this happen? i don’t understand it. it’s a rebellion of some sort, or a depression. i am so angry that … Continue reading wednesday.
wednesday is always a killer. i start at 10 and finish at 9 usually. today i start at 10 and finish at 6:30, then i’m going to a masterclass at helzberg hall. the instructor will be joyce didonato, one of my all-time favorite opera singers. my day yesterday was 11-9, which is just as bad, but wednesday is always the day that i just dread. … Continue reading wednesday.
i love the rain. i feel so content when it’s pouring outside. and if there’s thunder? i’m in total bliss. could it be my scottish roots? i heard that it rains there 300 days out of the year. that’s a little too much rain for me, probably. or is it? spring break is over. sniff sniff. oh well, it’s just as well. let’s just get … Continue reading tuesday.
it’s friday! and the first day of spring break! can this be real? the first day of breathing and eating right and finding balance again!!!! i am so thrilled. actually, i’m in shock. i can’t believe it’s here. yesterday, after the last final lesson, i opened my studio door, students all around, and ripped the lesson/coaching schedule off the door, crumpled it up and threw … Continue reading FRIDAY! FRIDAY!!! FRIIIIIDAAAAY!!!!!!
thank you, sharon, for your so real answer. “derailed” is such an accurate term, when that kind of toxicity is at work. i don’t feel derailed (at this point) by my colleagues. i do, however, feel derailed by my own self. my body is SCREAMING at me to rest, but if i rest, that means i’ll let people down. i’ll cancel lessons and have to … Continue reading wednesday/thursday.
the HAPPINESS PROJECT awaits. march is subtitled “aim higher”. what a coincidence. after having only done 3 out of 6 workouts on p90x last week, i started back up this morning with the 4th workout, yoga, thinking that i would just finish out the 1st week’s workouts, even if it took me two weeks. i couldn’t even get through 30 minutes of the 1 1/12 … Continue reading monday.
staying home this morning until noon. awesome. there was only one half-hour coaching i had to cancel to make that possible, but this is the kind of stuff i never thought to do before, to make my life easier. now i can work out, finish this mound of laundry, and even go to the grocery. LUXURIES. today is day four of p90x!!!! when i woke … Continue reading thursday.
P90X day one. ugh. didn’t even make it through the 58 minute workout. but i really liked it! i felt defeated by it, and now that i’ve had a few hours to contemplate my depression over the whole thing, i now feel excited to work and push myself until i CAN make it through the workout. of course, that was one video. tomorrow is a … Continue reading monday.
did the p90x fit test and barely passed. omg. i’m THAT out of shape? oy. but YOU try doing jumping jacks for 2 whole minutes! it’s kinda hard. so yesterday was ash wednesday, signifying the beginning of LENT. i didn’t grow up in a church that celebrated (for lack of a better word) the lenten fast or ash wednesday or fat tuesday, for that matter. … Continue reading thursday.